Alicia's ; XiaoDwarfiee

I expected it anyways , But It still hurts ):

2011-02-14T23:34:00.002+08:00

Back home , Can't wait t get home from town .
Mood down . Real bad . Sighs ...
I thought I expected all these coming already , but why am I still so hurt now ?
I knew my Valentine's Day will end up like that , I prepared myself already , BUT WHY AM I STILL TEARING ? )':
It just hurts so much .. ):
So envious of other couples .. Roses in hand & all .
Haha , I got none . As expected . Is it me or is it you ?
I didnt expect much ..
We didnt celebrate Valentine's Last year , Didnt celebrate Birthday , Didnt celebrate one year anniversary . 3 SPECIAL occasions you didnt celebrate & I let them go already . BUT WHY THIS VALENTINE'S ?????
Am I really that not worth until it's nt worth for you t even plan & SAVE MONEY t bring me out ?????????????? AM I ?!?!?!?!
It's nt about th money i spent , really .
It's about your efforts .. You made no efforts ):
I liked th present alot , It's nice though it's cheap .
But ................
Nevermind . You'll never understand ....... Never ...
I guess I'll never have anything specially planned by you .
& I dont carry my hopes t have any .
We'll just lead life you want it t be , spend all th money you have & have no money or whatever .
I dont care .
So used t life w/o money .
Then just carry on with this kind of no security life .
I got nothing to say .
Really DISAPPOINTED until nothing t say .

我太太太太失望了......

Happy Valentine's Day ♥

2011-02-14T00:08:00.004+08:00

It's Cupid Day & it comes only once a year (:

Hi Baby , must be surprised t see this post dedicated t you yes ? ^^
Well , A BIG ' ThankYou ' t you for being with me walking with me through my life for th past 1 year 6 months (:
It's been a really rocky journey for us , breaking up on 3 26th's & patching up once again & again & again .
It's been really hard fr both you & me because we've been quarreling over th stupidest reasons due t both our attitude , our age gap .
Yupps , 12years difference is a very wide gap , I find it wide too .
But I'm sure with our strong love & strong will t carry on with each other , these 12 years of gap will remain as a small problem between our relationship .
Truthfully t tell you , sometimes , being with you is so hard t please .
Whatever you like t do , your hobby , your interest are nt matching with me .
You know it yourself too .
You're not like any other guys out there because you dont save & spend what you have .
It hurts me sometimes because I've already started planning for our future but you're nt saving up or even making an effort t do so .
So , by not saving up , We're actually NO WHERE near our future . Really far .
Disappointed in my birthday this year , our past 1 year anniversary , my past Valentine's day , I really got no hope for my Valentine's day this year . I think true enough , you didnt plan nor get me a gift . Im really sad , but I guess this is you .
Im sorry if I judged you wrongly , but it's because of th countless disappointments I've faced .
I dont dare t look forward t things that yyou promised you'd do , because you always fail t keep your promise . It hurts , really .
But this is you .
They say Love is being able to accept someone for who they are & what they are . Im trying , trying very hard & Im still nt sure if I'm able t do it .
You know , seeing both our families watching fireworks tgt tonight , is something which made me very happy .
We're one step closer t our future again . (:
I hope you'd remember your promise that you'll never leave me anymore , & I really hope that we can walk this journey of our life together & get Engaged next year like what you said .
But being able t be together is not only one sided thing .
Both of us must put in our individual efforts t make this love last longer .
I hope you know whatever I do benefits no one , but You , Yourself .
If I dont love you @ all , I wouldnt care so much for you .
It's all because I Love You too much .
Jason , Once again thanks fr coming into my life & being with me tolerating my temper & attitude .
Going through with me everything .

♥ Happy Valentine's Day , Baby ( Tan Kay Hock ) ♥

This is th end , the last page of our fairytale (:

2011-01-25T09:23:00.004+08:00

Haha , early in th morning , Alicia is Single again (:
God is really making me go round & round ..
This is it , This is th end (:
I just need t be strong this once .. Just this once (:
Everyone , please hold me strong okays ? Bring me thru all these pain ..
Now I know , whatever I did was called controlling .
I really really hope , one day . You'll look back & realised , I was helping you .
Shaping your future (:
Take cares , Jiafu . Find your love of your life (:
Find someone that'll accept who you are , what you are , your past & what you're gna become .

而我的泪怎么就流下来 .. ... ..

下一站，幸福我以為 Autumn's Concerto Wo Yi Wei [pinyin & eng sub]

2011-01-24T23:10:00.001+08:00

This song best descibes my feelings now ... Sighs ..
Im letting go , Baby . Im letting you go ... ): ):

聖玄宫 Yewkeng ; 15o111

2011-01-16T13:01:00.001+08:00

Yeahs , just another yewkeng went pass ..
Tired max okays ...
Took Baby t Poly clinic fr blood test again .. Jaundice level going down alrd which is good (:
Went back & headed out t meet BF , David , Pris , Donald (:
Headed t Telok Blanghar for Yewkeng (:
Started so late ! Around 4 plus & it was raining so heavily !
All drenched !!!!
Yewkeng 5 places , accidents happens , blood flowing .. omg . NIGHTMARES ): 13 Tai Bao ♥David's SinZai (:Melvin's SinZai (:Ended @ 1o plus , Ahzhuan sent us all back t TPY de tua , hubby's nt suppose t bangong .
But end up jump cause kuaypek wna come up lo ..
Cried twice , & i think kuaypek very cute ! HEHE ! ♥
Ban until like 1.3oAM ?!
Somemore NanHaiTongZi want t wa Hubby ):
Di ah pek kick him away & come up fr that 5 mins ?
TehKi , pack stuffs , change & took a cab back w Daphne & JunJie luhs ..
Reach home 2.am . TIRED ):

4th Day @ Robinsons Raffles City ! ( Last Day )

2011-01-14T12:50:00.003+08:00

Wish He Was My Own ... (: CUTE ! ♥Stayed over @ Hubby's place cause need t bring Baby ; YeeCheng t Polyclinic fr his blood test again .
Jaundice level dropped , but need t go back on Saturday fr blood test again ):
So heartpain lo ):
Me love to carry him so much , so cute t see him sleeping in my arms (:
Fetched Tingting t school & went back home t have lunch ..
Slept & woke up t prepare fr work (:
Went early cause I wna buy mum a pair of low heels (:
Walked around w JiaYi , changed & went t work .
Punch cards , swiped card , deposit bags , name tag , work (:
I think DingHan saw me ! Hehe ! :D
So crowded today cause Robinsons got sales fr CardMembers ! omg .
Work till hands & legs breaking . Finished @ 1o+ & theres this customer who scold all of us & throw her box of shoe @ us ! Irritating shit ):
Off work , Bibi came & fetch me ^^
Went back t Kovan had porridge & 112-ed home (:
So tired this few days w work & taking care of newborn baby ):
Still got many sintua events ):
Need t go shopping sooon ! :D

WORK , YEWKENG , SINTUA , NEWBORN BABY ! TIRED !!!!

2011-01-12T12:15:00.006+08:00

Man ! I'm so so so tired after I started work & it has been only 2 dayyyyys ! ):
My blog is alil bit dead already & I dont know why either :/

8th Jan ;
Went t 胡松殿 t help with th Yewkeng @ Bukit Batok (:
My first very relaxing Yewkeng where all we did was t sit in th bus & travel w them till th last place (:
Last place was @ Bukit Batok's industrial area where we walk back tua .
Grand max , so many things t see .
Dua Di Ah Pek & Bao Bei Ya (:
Hungry ... Reached home @ 11 & slept w/o dinner ):

9th Jan ;
Rotted @ home since we got nothing t do ..
Went down & Baby wants t get his haircut but was rather crowded ,
So we headed t th tua & just nice they're preparing fr Yewkeng .
Dai qiam event wor , one from th mouth .
Saw Ahzhuan & some from 胡松殿 yewkeng th day before ..
Had drinks w AhZhuan & headed back t th salon but still crowded ..
Went home & bathed & headed t NEX t fix my phone lo ..
Bye LG , see you soon okays . Haha !
Shopped around & bought a set of clothes fr Newborn baby ( Yee Cheng ) .
Waited fr Maverick ( BF ) & David t reach Hougang & we went t meet them ..
Took 51 t th last place Hougang tua's yewkeng , but they're very very early .
They already reached back tua alrd !
Went back t th tua @ Hougang & talked awhile .
Headed t coffeeshop t eat & ahgau joined us ..
They went t watch movie , while me & baby home sweet home cause we both got work th next day ...

10th Jan ; First Day Of Work (:
Woke up @ 7 t bathe & prepare & I met JiaYi @ Hougang MRT @ 9am ..
Headed to Raffles city & punch cards , swipe cards & allocation of departments ..
Worked @ Ladies shoes / handbags / cosmetics area ..
Pretty crowded during lunch time & evening I suppose .
Worked fr 2 hours & headed back t hougang cause need t collect results (:
Went home in time t change & remove my makeup ! :D
Collected results - I expected it anyways ..
Went t collect Edusave & went home ..
Prepared & headed out @ 5 .3opm ..
drop in cheque & met Baby @ Outram ..
Went to his Uncle's funeral & cabbed t redhill , trained t Bukit Batok fr Bf's YewKeng ..
It was raining & all of us were drenched !!
By th time we reached , they were almost ready t go , with all th chiams ..
:/ First reaction was t stare & Joan jie with th ' omg ' face ):
Yew kampong only luhs .. Bf's Baobei - 13 Tai Bao ! ♥
& my stupid camera died on meeeeee ):
Walked under th rain , & back t tua . Totally cold & wet !
Took a bus back t ToaPayoh & went t eat with BF , Jie & Hubby (:
Xim Tia ):
After eating , took a cab back t Baby's house ..
Slept @ 1am .. Work th next day ..

心中有苦 , 口难开 , 脸带笑容 , 心悲哀 ...

2011-01-05T18:54:00.002+08:00

Still not in th mood up to today .
Sighs .
Have been spending my whole day sleeping & I still felt like sleeping ..
Im getting more & more withdrawn each day .
I dont feel like talking t anyone anymore .
Just want t be alone & cry when I feel like crying ...

~~LoveHurtsxz .~~

2011-01-04T20:11:00.001+08:00

Wo Fang Qi Le .
My heart just died .
Let's all just stop this topic once & for all .
Im not gna care about it anymore .
So . PLEASE ! Leave me alone to cry everytime .
Dont come & talk to me .
I dont want to hear .
LEAVE ME ALONE !

Exact 4o more days I have to cry ...

Fixing A Broken Heart - lyrics

2011-01-04T20:02:00.000+08:00

Ms. Robinsons ! ; o3o111

2011-01-04T12:28:00.002+08:00

I woke up so earlyyyy today ! I got training @ Robinson's headquarters todayyy !
Tired max ! Lectures from Mrs.Englands was funny , but it was pretty boring too ! :/
I met JiaYi @ th security checkpoint & she stays near me too ! Happy max ! :D
Met Mira when she came into class :D
Had lunch break & we went t Expo t explore .. End up , it was raining so we had t take a cab back t Headquarters fr Prac training ...
Tiring .. Ended @ 4.3opm I think ..
Walked t Expo MRT with Jiayi & Mira (:
Jiayi took w me t tampines and she headed t PasirRis t meet her boyfr. while Mira took th other side t Bedok (:
Took bus 72 home & something happened on th way ..
Quarreled with Bi , quarreled with BF .. Cried ):
Sighs .. Dont feel like talking or eating .
But went t have fried wantons with Bi & Sotong & drank Kickapoo !
Know why I drank Kickapoo ? Because it said - Joy juice .
But i stil dont feel happy @ all ..
Watch tv & offed th lights @ 1o ...
Cried fr 2 hours , texting BF ..
I swear I was so touched by what he said ... Really ...

Do I look like i've got a choice here ?
Thn who's ever gna understand me ?
Because I know he already dont care . All along ..
Why must I always have t choose between his fav. & my love ?
It's either let him be & leave him or swallow all th pain & SHUT UP , ALICIA .
Really . I got t make a choice .
Fcuk , this hurts so badly ): Sighs ...........................................................

孝子殿 Yewkeng ; o2o111

2011-01-04T11:48:00.004+08:00

Well , today is 孝子殿 yewkeng ...
Went t prepare & wait fr BF & th rest t meet us on th bus cause they take bus from YCK t meet us @ my house downstairs de Bus stop (:
Reached Tua @ 4 I think ? Not alot of ppl reach yet , so our whole group went t th coffeeshop behind t grab something t eat (:
Ate le , went back tua , QingDe lion dance cai qing , thn we all went t change tua's shirt lo ..
Th toilet so dirtyyyyyy & I dont know hw t open th toilet dooor ! Stupid Bibi stand so far & I cut my finger lo ! ):
Went out , Bibi & Bf went t change & prepare le . Got everything ready & we're suppose t be th last pair , who knows we're th first pair ! omg . I very very nervous lo !
My NERVOUS FACEEEEEEEEEE ! :D
They ready le , I jiu start t Chui Jiu ! Damn Nervous !
Cause ALOT of ppl STARING HORRRR !
Sorry BF ! My voice was shakyyyyy :/ My Favourite pictureeee on top ! :D
Kuaypek came up & prepared ...
Kialei & went t sit one side t wait fr th rest of th pairs t jump ..
Waited for quite long , talking t Kuaypek about th ice cream thing ..
All th pairs up le , chut tua . Went up th lorry !
Hehe , so fun .. First place noneed t go down , only Hao Zi Ya went down ..
We all sit in th lorry play lo ..
Another ahpek ask me Chui Jiu , Haha .
Reached Geylang , went down , pray & went up lorry again lo ..
I think we yew 3 places only if im nt wrong ..
2nd time alight from Lorry , Kuaypek ask me t chuijiu when we walk ..
Did it for twice till I got no voice :/
Reached Hougang Ave 3 walk back t tua le .. Long walk but was great (:
Reached back tua about 1opm , tehki & pack stuffs .
Jitao wear tua's shirt go home cause lazy change ..
Went t Ave 8 t eat first thn home sweet home (:
Tired max , but lovely yewkeng (:

Thanks Gabriel , Joan jie , Pris & AhXuan for your help in helping me t take care of his ahpek (:
Thanks David for di-siaoing me :D
Thanks everyone for making Yewkeng so enjoyable fr me this time (:
Xuan Kun Dian , Huat ar !

Steamboatttt Date ! ♥

2010-12-31T00:15:00.000+08:00

Yays ! I'm a happy girl today !
Went out @ 4 plus t meet Baby @ Bugis after his work .
Me went t get another pair of pants fr my work in Jan ..
Baby help me t choose uhs ^^ Hehe .
We also went into lan shop t use com fr less thn 2o mins & was charged 8ocents ! Cheap max !
Met up with Maverick ( BF ) & David & headed t some random steamboat restaurant t eat (:
Limited stocks . But still nice ! Had so much fun talking & laughing w them ! ♥
Finished up @ 9.20pm & headed t Th Wallet Shop (:
Baby bought me a card holder cause I needed it fr work (:
Thn we seperated luhs . Maverick & David headed t Lion dance ( I think )
while we headed home (:
Home sweet home @ 11.o2 PM .
Texting BF all th way till Im very tired (:
Thanks BF for understanding me each time (:
Simple & sweet day . Loveees ♥

New year , New blog (:

2010-12-30T06:02:00.000+08:00

Okays , Im back t blogging ^^
New year , so I created a new blog & I'll keep all those old ones as Memories (:
Will try t not let this blog rot uhs ^^v
Well , stay tuned for more updates (: